pause...n resume. step back ,look ahead n start. let it be...just let it be. let it all wash over you...observe. dont try too hard..it should not be this hard. be grateful..always.don't stop being who you are...don't make it hard for them.love them the way you know how to...don't let go if they are asking you not to.be foolish if it means being nice n if they feel nice too.for once,try not to run away.be here...be there..now. Now.
it's someone else's story, I tell myself. it's someone else's life...it's someone else's choice. hm..yea..so I better stay detached about it. right? hmm...it could be my story, my life...my choice. I wonder how it would have been , had it been my story. would I have played it differently? would it have made someone else think about it the way it has made me think? yes, I wonder what is going on there...on that end. could this all somehow turn just the way it is supposed to, the right way for all? will it eventually be "right" for all?
2 a.m. and cant stop thinking about stuff. I know its irrational. one of those days...or nights... your head keeps churning incomprehensible stuff like your arm is stuck and hence you cant sleep..(??..I know..)..and your other parts are kinda begging for attention...and you are dead tired..but the sleep..will just drown you...it chooses the last day of what was a relaxed long weekend to play havoc with your cycle!aaghh!! yea..so you get up and yea...do or try to do a couple of suryanamaskaras...mine own version ...bvk would have been cursing, sorry sir...do the best I can! the fun doesn't stop there, the attention now needs to be evenly given to one n all...and that is taken care of...when you realise its nearly half past four and you have a couple of hours before the dreaded week starts....hmm..fun,ain't it?